Well, this year has been quite a roller coaster ride, lots of ups and downs. I wouldn’t say it was a good year at all, it would be classified as one of the “not so good” year. Lots of disappointments, rejections, betrayals from who you thought were friends, but found new friends who ended up being your close friends and a shoulder to cry on when you most needed one. It is sometimes true that there is a window left open when you think they are all shut.
I didn’t end up travelling as much as I wanted to because I had a job change so I had to stay put during probation instead of going on vacation. But I finally did go to Japan for the first time, something I’ve been wanting to go since university and it finally came true. I was so excited to go and the country did not disappoint me. Everything was so new and neat, everyday was like a little kid discovering new things. I can’t wait to go back there again. I also went to Peru and saw the magnificent Machu Picchu, it is one of the great wonders of the world. It was not an easy relaxing trip, it was a lot of exercise, walking uphill, climbing stairs in the high attitudes but I conquered it. I managed to squeeze in one quick trip to visit my favourite NYC for the weekend, though things didn’t go well but I made the best out of it.
I went to a few big name concerts – Justin Timberlake, Katy Perry and Enrique Iglesias. I didn’t go to any Chinese concerts (they stop coming to Toronto), but I did end up getting tickets for the TVB Fan party show where I got to see Fred Cheng, Edwin Siu and Lawrence Ng. I also got tickets to see Wong Zi Wah and his sold-out stand-up comedy show, he is still my favourite comedian of all time. TIFF this year was alright, didn’t got stalk for stars on the red carpet as there wasn’t any star that I like enough to wait hours for. But I did buy tickets to see the world première of 單身男女2 starring my favourite Louis Koo. I was hoping he would show up but did see the director Johnnie To.
I finally had a job change after years of complaining at my previous job. It wasn’t my next dream job but it is a good stepping stone towards the next opportunity. I now have a lot of “hats” to put on and not just managing the finance. My dream of working downtown seems impossible for me as I’m moving further away from the core. But I know I don’t have the luck as others do, when I have a job offer, I have to take it cause it doesn’t come to me often. Not like others who have job offers for them to chose. Doesn’t matter if I have the same qualified skills as the other candidates or even better, I’m never the one that gets picked. I feel like even within my own industry circle, it works the same way as the entertainment world. Lots of people are great actors / actresses but not everyone is given the opportunity. The famous stars are those lucky ones that got a break, there are still others down below that are struggling to work their way up to being famous one day. And I’m one of the small supporting actress that are just there to support the big shots up on the top. It doesn’t mean I can’t do their job, it’s just not my fate.
That goes along the same line, why do some people meet guys after guys, boyfriends after boyfriends but the guys I meet are jerks. Why? It is times like these where you realize who your friends are, those who won’t hide things from you thinking that you might not find out about it. The saying is very accurate that “True friends go long periods of time without speaking & never question the friendship”. This year really made me realize who these individuals are, they don’t just use you for certain benefits and then disappear. This is why I stop posting status updates on FB or be on FB all day long, once in awhile, I will change my profile pic but I only update my life happenings in my blog. I start getting irritated on people’s useless (無聊) posts or those people who keep liking their own photos.
I stop making new year’s resolutions because it is pointless. I’ve been making the same ones for years but you know what, there are things that you have no control over. No matter how hard you try, it doesn’t mean you will be successful in it. And then at the end of the year, you get disappointed at yourself and start the depressed cycle all over again. So my new perspective is just live with the flow! Goodbye 2014, welcome 2015! 🙂